The long day continues to rain as the clock reaches 4:42pm. I’ve started work at a college bookstore now, a temporary position to help get me by until I can find some real work again. Before that I worked at Boston Market temporarily as a food catering delivery driver… The first day of work at BM started the day after my cast came off from my broken finger… at which point I discovered I was required to carry heavy insulated food carriers with my still recovering broken finger that looked like this:

….sometimes 5 of them which I had to fill with scorching hot plates of macaroni, mashed potatoes, chicken and stuff… mashed potatoes can be really heavy! …Oh well… before working at boston market I worked for awhile at… *shudders* …Target. I can’t believe I am an ex Target employee… I woke up at 3am everyday for awhile to go breath in some gas, floor wax/polish, dust, toilet cleaner and get a glimpse of 3rd-world work in a 1st-world environment… half the employees were like zombies, and when the store lights turned on at 8am four hours later, then came the zombie shoppers, a terrifying species seemingly bred purely to shop mindlessly and move aimlessly at less than snails pace.

But I did what I had to do, and for that I am proud. I’ve met some cool people at my new bookstore job so far which is fun. I’m also really crossing my fingers and watching my mailbox like a hawk to see if I got a check in the mail soon for some contract work I did during the holiday season. Since august last year I’ve applied to over 400 design jobs and I’ve gotten 3 interviews with similar feedback- hiring freeze. Why do they even post job offers? I can’t seem to understand it. The consequence is that I will probably be staying with my parents, downgrading my car, hardly going out, and focusing on other things until this economy starts recovering… if it does. (Article: The Other Unemployment Rate) I’m just hoping sooner than later things start picking up- because I’m tired of this feeling of being stuck in a rutt. I really wish I could slow down time and focus on what is important as I constantly feel like my time is running out for some reason, maybe its just the debts and the feeling of helplessness that a lack of personal funding provides for my passionful endeavors and dreams. I know I can do great things if I am just given the chance.

Speaking of which, I’ve found a few places that I might be able to do some vocal recording. I’m also still trying to work out some kinks for the music video I plan on making- one of them is finding a decent HD video camera to use. I think I’ve found a cheap rental service, $400 for one full week. Now all I need to do is set a date. I am thinking the week of February 16th – 22nd.